My first exercise of golf in April

Last night, I did my first exercise of golf in April. You can image how awful the result.

Let me tell you how my two hunders ball was played:
0-50, used P club, the balls were fallen off at 50-60 yard, but they were too right!
51-100, still used P club, the balls still were fallen off at 50-60 yard or worse.
100-150, used 7 and 6, I could not play the balls and the balls flighted to the right too much! And the distance about 80-95 yard.
150-200, my palm felt so tired and my hands shivered and can not been control.

I have not played the golf for one month, so last night just a exercise for the recover. During the Labor holiday, I will do more exercise and hoping can be recovered to the before.

About May's plan

The whole April, I dealt with my test, and spent every weekend to take the test at the different place. I did not to play golf, did not to go to shopping, did not have the enjoy time with my friends and did not to read the books that I like or want.

So, I have one month can relax and enjoy my time. I can read all the books that I bought before, I can play golf when I am off work. When I am thinking this kind of thing, I am very happy, especial, play golf, I have not played it for age! This sport is my favour, although, somebody feels this is a boring sport.

And, May is a love month, because of my friend birthday, and I will give him a big surprise,hehe.

But, I will have the same life in October, what the hell! Before that month, I just have two subjects test.

Dysthymia

Last night, my friend told me that she had low level dysthymia. Did not want to do anything, could not see future and could not go to sleep.

I said that I was a middle level dysthymia. Same symptom but more severe than her. Just one thing that had the total diffient: I do not want to wake up every day.

Let us think the good way of all things......

Actually, I can not see any good news......

If your all enjoyment are depand on the one thing......

I can not control my mind......

You said that you are the high level dysthymia, I just want to tell you, me too.

The day what you are recovery is my day.

Let us wait for it.

The smuggled and the original

My computer is IBM X60 (although it is belong to Lenovo), this is my first IBM, a smuggled goods, cheaper than the original goods.

Because of the smuggled goods, it is not work as normal, some softs can not work on it and no way to change it, for example, the dictionary of english. When I used the low edition or the smuggled, my computer did not work, it striked! Yesterday, I bought the new edition dictionary(the original!), the 2007 softking. Until now, it seems work normaly.

I bought the mp3 of BBC news 2006, I have to improve my listening.Translated them to my Apple nano, and listening it now.

But, too many things that I bought to improve my english, however, how do they work? I admit that I was too lazy. If I can not use them, I waste my money!

Anyway, I tidied my winter clothes yesterday when I woke up at 9pm. Too many clothes never been pulled on but I still felt no a suitable clothing can be found.

Want to sleep......

Too higt temperature around the office, I want to sleep..... Still no too many things to do, perhaps I do not want to do, do not complain about other people and things, finding all reasons from yourself.

Called the another company which wanted to recruit new sales, all people in this company were known by me when I was working in last company. However, I do not think I will get this job, because too know well no a good thing.

My friend tell me, before calling the good horse does not eat to turn head grass. But, now, the good horse does eat to turn head grass. Do not angry with your money. Ok, if Lara stays here is because of money, what is my reason?

Ok, let me waite for the news from this company. In fact, I do not prepare very good for a new busy job. I should change my all schedule about study about life and so on.

But now, I just want to go to bed, and have a long and high quality sleeping. I do not have enough energy to play golf, although, I really want to go.

I promise, if I have a good sleep tonight, I will play golf tomorrow! MUST!

Labor day's plan

Have six days is Labor day, the holiday in China, we have got seven days vacation.

What is my plan during this vacation? Just want to read all books that I bought this month, almost five or six. And play golf, I lost one month because of the test. Other thing, I am not sure, get together with friends or sister, yes, have good sleeping is very very important! And, I need to clean up my winter clothes. Do I need to sweep the windows and the sofa-clothes? Depent on my mood.

Today is a fair day, I can see the west mountain, what should I do this afternoon? Ok, reciting the vocabulary.

Change or do not change?

I feel, I should change my job as soon as possible, because I can not waste my time every day.

This boss is not a good boss, he just likes doing some very idiographic work no management no plan. And, before, I read lots of story, a successful boss who thought some things for his staffs and did some things follow the company's plan. However, I did not see any things that he did like these.

And, now, our office has not had any income but we have had very valuable clients, if the boss can pay attention to this point, he will see the how valuable we are.

But, he did not give my salary for three months, not too much money, but it a sufficient effect can make me feel bad. If you did something but did not get any return, how feeling are you?

I am not a person who do not care these kind of things. So, I feel bad.

My hair！

My hair have had some problem for a long time.

Firstly, my hair fell out too much, it is not normal. I eat walnuts and jujubes but not to be very useful. So, I got a haircut, changed length, when will this issue be changed?

Secondly, my hair's colour should be black, however, I am not too old to have some white hair. And my hair had had very good quality before, black and thick, I do not know where have some problem and why it happened. I found a lot of menus of treatment for this issue, they were not useful too.

Test, worry and some bad mood can engender effect for hair. This month, I am too busy, no good sleeping no good mood. These are all problem will be changed from this week, and I will have good time until 10th May, because, I still have one improtant subject test at 20th May, so , use 10 days to prepare.

1st May is labor day, we have seven days vacation, I have not had any plans for it.

Today is a laxative but boring day.

Relaxation time before the test

Tomorrow, I am going to take the test this time. I seem already see the end time of test, what a nice time!

Last nigt, I was going to get a haircut, I just wanted to be short not to change anything and did not spend too much money. Howevery, the barber gave me a advice but did not tell me about the price, I guessed, it did not spend too much more than one hundred RMB. And I thought, if the price was reasonable, I will buy their member card( 3,000 RMB). Could you guess how much money I spent? Let me tell you, three hundred and eighty RMB. When I heard this number, I could not say anything. I took a short time to pay the money and leave that hair shop and did not want to come again. Actually, I did not care how much money I just was angry that they did not tell me before doing, although I did not ask.

Anyway, can not do this kind of thing anytime! If you do not want, tell them and refuse the extra service, you must know, no free lunch in the world.

How to describe my new hairdstyle, very strange, very......

Wii!!!

Hehe, recently, I like checking some information about Wii!!! Yes, a game box. Everybody said that it is a good game box, you can play it as the true life, great! And, it is very suitable for girl.

I want to play its golf game, hearing for other people, you can get great feeling during play time. I cannt wait for that day, but I have to wait untill the national holiday.

Hope I can use it often, not like my Apple Nano, hehe, nano has been in my handbag for age, I cannt remember it was used last time.

This month is too busy for preparing the test, and I will have this kind of life in October. Next month, I need a relax time, must!!!

So, a relax time can not without Wii!!!

Fribble!

What a fribble! Everyday just do some nonsensical things, I really hate this kind of person.

If you want to know the secret of somebody, let me tell you, you a fribble!

I cannt control my mind, so I do not want to say any words when I lose my mind.

What a terrible mood! Anyway, this weekend has a last test in this month.

Sounds like I have already been crazy! Yes, never happened!

The scalded cat fears cold water

The scalded cat fears cold water, in China, we call " bitten by snake one day, be afraid the line ten years"

Sometimes, we do not want to do or eat something, just because it had made some bad memories for us.

If we couldnot been hurt, that would be a lucky thing.

Ok, I do not know what I want to write. Doing work now!

No title

The chinese stock market is writing a magical story. All people are crazy because the stock market is fast rise. Person can make money if only buy any stock.

The sky is not very clear, the weather is not very fine, I am not in a good mood, perhaps I have had less sleeping times this week than usually.

I like to push the "next blog", because reading other people's blog is very happy thing, you can see some interest things on it. And I can improve my english when the blogger is the English. And, I want to find you, that is a magical thing that I really want.

Ok, it is too late for starting today's work, just do it, Nike said.

So tired today

Got up early but arrived the office too late, terrible the traffic jam, wasted one hour for waiting.

Too busy and tired day, perhaps had relationship with the high temperature and the sun's rays are too bright.

All afternoon had chat with my client, a younger boy, nice but self-partiality. Actually, if I was not a role for a sales, I never wanted to have chat with this kind of person. He made me feel very tired because I kept my smile in the whole afternoon.

Maybe I slept too late last night and the day before yesterday night, I was no any extra energy to do other things, although, I need to prepare two files for my job.

Ok, do my study firstly, and if I had time, I would do my job, from 11pm.

I liked doing my work anytime before, now, I just do my work at the work time, I do not want to more. Do I change to be lazy? No answer, I do not to find the answer too.

You do not know my sorrow

You do not know my sorrow, I just want to see your smile, the true smile. I want to give you a hand, because I believe you are a person who cannt be beaten down. Nobody can do well without the help of friends.

You do not know my sorrow, I want to see your action, not just stay at home and sleeping or smoking. I know how sad you are, but we cannt get anything from "sad" besides sigh. And sigh cannt give us anything that we wish.

You do not know my sorrow, I want to see your courage, even if we have not anything, the courage is our all. Face the fact, it is not a easy thing, if you did not do it, anything would not be resolved.

You do not know my sorrow, I am refused by you, any words cannt go to your ears and your heart. I am waiting for you and write all words here, you, never want to see them.

So, if I left, would you feel better? Would not feel lonely？

You do not know my sorrow, because I love you.

New day, new week......

9:50am, a new day, new week.

Today is not a sunny day, because of Monday, the cars are not too many on the 2nd ring. Still no too many things to do, if I want to change, I must do something keep myself busy.

Ok, let me do!

Should go to bed...... sleeping!

This title, hehe, easyly confuse, my meaing is " too late to go to bed", 2am 16th.

Just want to write somthing, do not know what can be writed, however. Do you know yourself? Look, I have too much very strange ideas and questions, but I really want to know, because, I do not know myself. I can give some good ideas or suggestion for my friends when they had any questions, not only work but also sensation. How did I do? Did I follow my suggestion? No, I was not. So, I joked myself, I am a academic bouncer, active dwaf.

Should I change my job for a psychologic consulter? Just for other people, not myself, so, how about me? Who can give me a hand?

If have two barbers at a city, who is best? Just looking anothers hairdress, you will know.

Hehe, do not tell me that you cannt understand.

Actually, I do not know what I am writing for, just want to keep some words and make them become some sentences.

Now, I am going to bed, tomorrow, a new week, and I have to face the test at the weekend, terrible! But the good news is that is a last test in this month.

Next test at 20th May, a special day.

Good night.

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By the way, upload a photo, make my blog look beautiful, a flower of spring, but the dictionary calls it is a "winter jasmine flower".

Blogspot is opened!

Great! Blogspot is opened! I did not go out morning. When I opened my blog and pushed "the next blog", yes, I can see other blogs, I sent a message to my friend, wish he was happy too.

Friends on the Internet said that we did not know when the blogspot would be closed again, I do not care, today is open, we will get the happy time one day.

What are you doing? I am waiting for your new photos and new stories, you are great man, just do it, I believe you.

Do not to be lazy!

A friend said that I was too lazy, not only for money but also for anything.

He is correct, somtimes, I am a lazy girl, I do not want to think too much things about my life. Somebody may feels that I am a studied person, I know what I need to do or what I should to do.NO NO NO, I alway do something that just in my mind recently. I am a simple person.

I need to change, not only for my job but also for my life, my study. Let me make a plan about my study, because I must finish a serial tests on May, July, September, October this year, and January 2008. I hope I can finish all test when we celebrate the 28th Olympics in Beijing. I must pay attention to my subjects, a very hard work.

Ok, that is enough, let me step by step, about my job, actually, I need to think, it is a "go or stay behind" question.

Next week, I can play golf, I guess that my head will agree with me, because it is better than last week, not too pain.

13rd, a black Friday

Today is Friday, and today is 13rd, we call this day is "a black Friday", it means that it is a unlucky day. Do not do anything this day. Although it means a Friday before Easter day.

I asked my friends, do you know what is your life that you real want? Just a person answered me, she said that had a good family, had a good job, had some good friends. "These are simple and basic." she said. And other people told me that they did not know answer. Perhaps they do not want to let me know their true notion. Everybody has their answer, in their mind in their heart.

What is my life that I real want? Get together with my lover who loves me much more than I love him; Have a good family, a good and healthy child; Have a job and can get good salary that can give me life guarantee; Have some friends who can understand me and give me some help when I need a hand.

Look, I am a selfish person, I just think myself, but who is not? Let me keep my secret, a secret about my love, in my area. Hehe, nobody knows it, just me, and you.

Have not gotten your message, hope you are ok, and have a good weekend.

Good night.

Relaxing

Catched cold, a serious times, did not go to the office.

Felt very uncomfortable, slept for fifteen hours, still uncomfortable, nose/throat.

So, do not want to write too much, I need to prepare my test tomorrow.

Hope will be ok.

Difficulties

The difficulties of past, they have past!

The difficulties of now, they are passing!

The difficulties of future, they will pass!

My mind

When I finished my work, I am sitting here and watching the cars river.

What is important for us? Health, family, work, friend, money or ourselves? What can be given up by ourselves firstly? Everybody can give a answer, so, what is my answer?

Money is important, it is our life's guarantee, like air like water, we need to use money to buy food and so on, I cannot have money anytime, but how much money is enought? I do not know.

Work is important, not only make money but also bring the self-confidence for us. When you feel sad, work is a good way to rescue us sometimes. Howevery, work takes a lot of time from you life, no enough time to feel other.

So, health/family/friend, which one do you want to give it up fristly? I am no idea, or you can say that it's not answer of it. Everythin is important, you cannot lost them.

I like money, I need a work, I like my friends, I need a good health, I miss my family. We are cupidity, but because of it, so we are true!

Our health

Last night, my friend told me that she had some problems about her health. Actually, I am very warry about her mind, it was not a small thing, special for a woman.

We are not easy for living in the world, we need to face too many things and too many misfortune. We are better than other people, it does not mean that we can catch all of good things, God is fair, although, sometimes, he may forget us.

Everyday is a day, in spite of you are happy or unhappy. If you are happy the whole day, you may get more, a good mind, a fair day, despite the bad weather which you were met.

Dear, let us happy every day, in spite of what we meet. I hope you can read it sometime, and you can understand what I mean. You are the most speical person for me, I hope you are happy, healthy and so on.

Nothing to do

One day = 24 hours
One work day = 8 hours
How many hours are wasted every day by myself?

Waste time equal waste life.

How about you? Do you enjoy your time? I am so confused.

Perhaps I should change my mind firstly, then, I need to change my job. Or, change the order of it.

Change my mind or insist on my style

I am confusion, because I do not know if change my mind or insist on my style. Just for my work.

Sometimes, I feel my style not very suitable my job, for example, I do not like to request somebody who is my friend, I am not suitable for a sales. What do I like to do? I like to keep the relationship with all people who are very important for our company, like a PR.

Howevery, everybody believes, I will be a good sales, because I know many people. I want to have a big source can be used, not like now. Yes, my friends are right, I am suitable in a big company.

Should I change my job or change my mind or just insist on my style?

The end of today

What do I want to write? I do not know, just felt a little bad. Not about anybody, perhaps, about me? Sometime, I feel lone, friends need to do their job and I couldn't complain anything because nobody wants to listen, I do not want to be a boring woman.

But, do you know my sad? Do you know what I am thinking? And, do you know my hope? You do not know.

No photo, no happy word, no smile. The spring is going to far away us, can you catch it? Please use your camera, remember every day. All day of my sad in this spring.

What is Blog meaning?

Writing at anytime, writing anything that I want to write.

So, who care what I write and how many I write? I have enough time now, and I have lots of words want to write. Nobody can find and read, just for myself.

I am waiting for you, howevery, you do not want to find me, yes, at least, you have not found me yet.

My nose, feels bad, and how about you? Hope you have good body and good mood.

Today is Monday, the first day of a week, a new week, I do not know what will be happened on the week, and, no news is good news.

Bless you and me.

Last weekend......

Last weekend was a busy weekend, I took four subjects test, so tired.

Got up at 7:30am, and took one hour from my home to school, and took one hour to answer the quite stupid test paper. I do not know that the test is 'must' if the test just for getting a mark. All questions were in the review data and you just to remember it and you will past. So, why should we take the test??? Waste our time and waste our energy! I hate test forevery!!!

I can pass last weekend tests but how about this weekend? I have no any idea for it. Quite difficult, look the subjects of them: Mao conspectus/ Marketing/Linearity algebra. ABNORMALITY!

And, I caught cold last Saturday....... The weather is not very good, foggy and muggy. This is fourth month in this year, April, next weekend when I finish test, I need to clean up my winter and summer clothing. I cannot wait to next month.

Great!

Yes! A good news! I know you have not give up, so, I was very happy when I saw your work.

Although, I just wrote the words for you, you can feel how I am happy.

I cant write too much, I have to go to bed because I have four tests this weekend, I believe that I will get the good marke, yes, because of tonight.

Good night, everybody and enjoy your weekend. Waiting for my good news of test!

The furthest distance

The furthest distance in the world is not between life and death
But when I stand in front of you, you don't know that I love you.

The furthest distance in the world is not when I stand in font of you, you can't see my love
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both, cannot be together.

The furthest distance in the world is not being apart while being in love
But when plainly can not resist the yearning, pretending you have never been in my heart.

The furthest distance in the world is not
But using one's indifferent heart to dig an uncross able river for the one who loves you.

Notice :-)

I use the english to write my blog, because I want to improve my english. Although, it is not seen by anybody.

I know, these are a huge mistakes in my blog, not only spelling, but also grammar and so on.

So, if you see these mistakes, do not laugh me, tell me and I will be very very happy.

This photo is for you :-) This is my favourite.

What a nice day!

Today, warm and nice, spring season!

Flowers open their face and reveal their feeling......, I hope you can see all of these, and know what my meaning is.

What are you doing? Do not stick yourself at home, go! just for your golf, just for your photos.

I am waiting for you, here, anytime, until you find me.

Enjoy your time.

10:41am, Friday, 6th April, 2007

(Because I do not know how to change my blog time, so I use my way to record the true time)

Before

Before going to have dinner, I go to your area, but nothing......

Before going to do my homework for my test, I go to your area, but nothing......

Before going to tomorrow, I go to your area, but nothing......

So, I continue thinking...... you.

This photo for you, because its life is very strong！

Tonight......

This weekend has four tests. I need to prepare my test, hoping everything can be better.

Blogspot still can't be visited in China. Nobady knows that is my blog, so doesn't matter, but how about your? We don't know when can be repaired, let's wait, let's wait ......

I told you the same words, and hope you have a good night.

Sun will be uprisen every morning. Let's wait ......

Do you know my sorrow?

Do you know my sorrow? Because I love you.

You are in my heart, never leave.

Why do you refuse me? I want to become your friend who can go through thick and thin together, can share each other's hardships, not only in favourable circumstance, but also in adversity.

You do not understand me, or you never try to understand me. You are not all of my life, but you are very important for me.

Do you know my sorrow? Do you?

Megranate

This photo was taken by my friend. What a nice photo!

This fruit is called 'megranate', is produced in XJ, China.

Megranate is not only look beautiful, but also has very profuse vitamin.

My friend takes a lot of photos about XJ, this is one of all, I hope he agree that I can use it.

WHY! WHY!WHY!

Ok! I did not do my plan this morning, but, 'you' can't close the blogspot!

Today is Tomb-sweeping Day, but not a pretext!!!

Now, I just use another way to go on my blog, but how about my friend? how about other blogger? They use this area just do themselves work, like photo, like song. If 'you' were a open man, what are you afriend??? If 'you' do well, what are you afriend??? I never want to waste my time my words to write these, but, today, I am very very angry！！！！！！！！！

If 'you' can open blogspot before 1pm today, I will get up at 6am tomorrow morning.

I know sombady will be very sad, because this area is his heart, is his favourite. I do not want to see his grieved......

Bless you, my friend.

How to stick my picture？

I chose one photo for my picture, but, I don't know how to work?????

Why do they make too difficult step for Internet?

Ok, maybe just becaust I am so foolish today.

This is my favourite. Show it!

Be sad and cake

Bought a cake, because I was so sad today. Somebady said that the sweat food can make happy.

I bought it and ate it, however, I still unhappy. So, I knew, this way is not suitable me, at least, not suitable now.

I have not told my friend my blog, and do not want to tell anybady and anytime. That means, nobody will stick and write anything for me here. This is my area.

Found a riddle on the Internet, when are your eyes not your eyes? I want to say: when you wrong, hehe.

Ok, I am going to make my dinner, how about fast noodle? and have shower. After all things, I need to do my homework for my test at this weekend and next weekend and next next weekend. A poor girl.

Tomorrow, my plan is: get up at 6am. and go to the office, and have breakfast at the office restaurant. I really hope it will become the fact.

By the way, I have not found the way to show my picture, do it when I finish my all test.

If somebady see my blog, pleast forgive me.

About sofabean

I am sofabean, a girl.

I don't know if have a sofa is named "sofabean" or a bean is named "sofabean". I chose it just because I like eating bean and I really want to become "sofa" in somebody's blog.

This is my the second blog, the frist, to die of being lazy.

Today, now, I am so sad, I can't make any senses of my life, of my job, of my lover. I just want to sleep sleep sleep ....................